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If you argue with him, you're hard-headed. If you're quiet, you don't care.
If you call him, you're too clingy crazy. If he calls you, he says you should be happy.
If you don't love him, he'll try to win you. When you do love him, he leaves.
If you don't fuck him, you're a tease. If you do, you're easy.
You tell him your problems, he says you're irritating. If you don't, he says you don't trust him.
If you lecture him, you just want to argue. If he lectures you, it's because he 'cares'.
If you break a promise, he doesn't trust you anymore. If he breaks it, it's because he had to.
If you cheat, he expects it to be over. If he cheats, he wants another chance.
They're basically the same.
Guys drink to forget about girls; girls drink to think back about the guy.
When guys are in love they become poor; when girls are in love they become pretty.
Guys can forget, but can't forgive; girls can forgive but can't forget.
When guys are heartbroken, they try to forget about the girl by going out with another girl.
When girls are heartbroken, they try to find his characteristics in another guy.Guys wish to be her first love, girls wish to be his last.
Isn't it so true? (:
(Credits, Deborah's blog.)

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Today, I went to school as usual, after bring the two drunk men home yesterday.
Was extremely tired, but still decided to attend school.
Went for counselling session where the counsellors told us to write out out life line, the happenings.
& I finally took time to reflect on my life.
I started with being athletic in my primary school life, but smoked at Primary 5, under influence by my sister.
As I started secondary school, I turned over a new leaf, cutting down on the stealing, vulgarities, etc.
I became the class monitor, student counsellor, advocate, talked on stage, commentator for sports say, etc.
Soon enough, I got bullied, I turned to gangsterism, thinking that if it isn't me bullying people, people will bully me, & this realisation brought about the me now.
Talked about smoking heavily, him, some heavy impacts on my life & so on. One detail was putting the tattoo.
The counsellor then asked, what was my highest point & lowest point.
I answered him, " My highest point is ever putting that tattoo, & getting to be together with him, where was where my depression started. My lowest point is also, ever putting that tattoo, & getting to be together with him"
What contradictions.
Thid counselling made me think a whole lot, & reflect on my past & how to make them better.
They told me to forgive myself for my wrongdoings. But even if I have the strenght & confidence to forgive myself, will the others?
Met Chin today once more, really thought about his words.
I really realise now, how the others think of me. I may be a horrid person to them, I may cause trouble to them, but I don't mean it at all. I know myself best, & that I'm not such person you guy think I am.
Guess I just cannot change you guys perception because of the mistakes I once made, maybe I'll stick to being the bad guy for life.

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OMG YOU REPLIED I'M SO HAPPY.
Why?
Sigh, heard that Jianfeng had an accident, wish him well.
Saw Xavier & chatted with him, the emotions shot me, & I stumbled.
Guess I still can't forget you, I really don't know why.
How do I express this feeling? Sad? Happy? I really have no idea.
But the past just could not ever be the present once more, you wouldn't it, sigh.
Whatever, I should get some sleep, wish you well.
I really regret ever quarreling with you for the first time, I might be happy in love with you right now, sigh.
But what's the point? Sigh.
I love you, so very much.

Jovell.L'Jiaxin.

Jovell.Lim.Jia.Xin's

9th November; Sixteen,
Deborah & Jolene are my precious.
Promises are not meant to be, ~~broken~~
Msn : icyscorpio_gb@hotmail.com
Love,

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